I can hear my hardcore breastfeeders getting ready to attack but I am only kidding! You have to take time out to feed the kid somehow; on the boob, boob milk in a bottle or formula, they all take time to get in the baby. Although, I am sure there are people who choose formula for convenience, I don’t know any of them.
I am breastfeeding Abigail, through pumping. I started out dreaming of being able to breastfeed her even though it didn’t work out with Nathaniel. I was pumping to induce labor and getting milk, I had 15oz in the freezer, I was very hopeful that I would be able to breastfeed Abby. Within a half hour of her being cut out, she was on me, rooting around for a boob and trying to get hooked on. With a lactation consultants help, we got her on the boob. When left on my own, I couldn’t make it happen. We ended up using donor breast milk at the hospital until Chris could go home and get my stash. I vowed this time would be different and after a few days of pumping every feeding and trying to breastfeed, I made an appointment with Great Beginnings, the lactation people in the hospital to get some help. Help I got! She showed me how to get her on one boob and I was able to get her latched on too, hooray!
The thing is, in order to breastfeed Abby I have to have a nipple shield that takes several tries to get on and can be knocked off by her in about a half a second if she doesn’t get on. The we have to try several times to get her on what I have lovingly termed ‘robo nipple’ and endure several minutes of screaming. Not to mention it requires a boppy, I can NOT position her right without the boppy and she will only get on the left boob. So, public breastfeeding will not be an option for me and I have decided that even though I absolutely love cuddling her and looking down at her drinking from my body, it’s not something that I’ve continued. However, she is breastfed, through pumping. We have a can of formula in case we need to supplement a middle of the night bottle but my supply is now providing for her. It’s slowly increasing as her appetite increases and we are doing just fine.
So far there hasn’t been any judging looks from me and my bottle but I know they will happen, it happened with Nate, lectures about formula and how breast was best. None of us should have to explain ourselves every time we feed our kids in public, just feed your kid! We might have to go to formula if the boob runs dry and that’s just fine.
Not everyone can breastfeed, not everyone wants to breastfeed and not everyone keeps breastfeeding and that is okay.